The saints have been squatting in my home
again. They can’t agree on the exact reason
for leaving paradise, but most nod when
the patron saint of the falsely accused says
he was tired of all the light. It always comes
back to light. I ask what’s to be done about
June’s rent? Some pull hands out of robe
folds holding stale loaves and palm fronds,
but the patron saint of the art a child could
have made is the first in the growing line,
offering me divine inspiration to paint
two red squares colliding. The tabloid
saint advises me on how to use cucumber
slices to sip cellulite from my thighs, while
the patron saint of cosmonauts provides
Komarov’s last words with the preface,
I know you have been searching. These
saints are used to Cain and Abel—love
measured in sacrifice. These saints are
starting to ask what you have earned.
They’re taking up your room, filling my
bed with cupped hands. Under the sheets,
the saint of depressed ex-lovers tells me
which men still hold my sweaters to their
mouths, but she doesn’t offer up my sweaters.
Her brother, the saint of you are not like
the others reads me a book of women who
have heard the same from you. It is getting
harder to sleep with all the knees sunk into my
back, with the smell of snuffed candles, but I
would still prefer to stay in tonight, because I’m
not the patron saint of rain. I’m not the patron
saint of moths hurtling toward well-lit windows.
from Poetry Northwest 11.2 Winter & Spring 2017More by Paige Lewis from the library
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