after Bob Hicok
It shot out of Mr. Foster’s mouth, I flinched while he took aim
at fucking kamikaze crows
who dove from the sky, landed in rows of his prized tomatoes, bore
into red and yellow flesh. It rode
the air, clipped me, an arrow dipped in blood from beaks, sharp
and fast as gold beads
from his cocked rifle. Mixed with Get out, slurred
by Budweiser chugs from cans
our neighbor Mr. F crumpled with his hands, flattened
with his boot soles, it bubbled
in beer foam, softened by the paper bag of heirlooms
Mr. F brought to our front
door. The best ones . . . I picked them for you he told
my mother. His gift appeasing
the boundary between continents, our backyards, like the free advice
he offered my father as I stood
behind fence slats, listening: Place old tires deep in soil
for ripe tomatoes. Scatter seeds
for crows. It was his gaze shifting sudden to a bird
overhead, his liquored breath
and insistence at how sneaky we were, and Why did you marry one?
he asked my father, You better watch
out. His raided garden of fallen globes. A failed crop. My mother Renko
and father Stuart growing me—their heirloom—
too many shades of us for him, the enemy in me, her almond eyes
and olive skin, crows lifting
off, Mr. F’s drunken misses bringing him to his knees, his downed
plane a half-century
ago, his claps and my gasps when they landed
backwards, black bellies
up. It cut through my father’s nervous smile, Hey buddy,
just don’t say it . . .
Mr. F’s reply I won’t say it around your wife . . . I backed
away from his bruised
harvest, furrowed trenches speckled with gunpowder, birds
flapping wings
in dirt, Mr. F’s barrel tarnished like his burning
plane, sinking into the ocean
where he was stranded, shrapnel from his war embedded
in parts of me.
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