I don’t drink wine
much anymore
though I love that not
feeling feeling
of not remembering
having pressed
the giant translucent
anxious button
in my chest
that turns
something I don’t
know the name of
off and a pure wise
hilarity vector among
the conversation clusters
I float bestowing
my sometimes speaking
at others just silently
sparkling full of potential
energy presence
and later I remember
I have always been
an exiled prince
who could but has not
chosen yet to return
to govern my fully
adoring people
I’ve also never
taken Ecstasy
then sat on a couch
in Peru 14%
excited licking
a hot person
dressed like a rabbit
I do remember
analog porn
somehow holding
an inevitable magazine
always feeling
without knowing
how to say it
true ecstasy
would be to stand
above myself protecting
me as I turn
those sudden blessed
horrible corners
from Sun BearFind it in the library
Copyright © 2014 Matthew Zapruder
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on behalf of Copper Canyon Press.
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